Why do I eat

Ok I am the worst person if you reading this but I can’t stop myself from eating when I try not to eat… Today I ate a sausage roll, a brownie, slice of Carmel mud cake and dinner. God I feel fat…. wait I am fat. I so over this I try not to eat but everyone around me eats for the next four weeks I’m gonna just drink water and juice and only eat veggies if I’m forced to eat. I have a party tomorrow night i;m only drinking water. I bloat when I don’t fizzy drink and there will be boys. All my friends are sticks, why not me. I’m so over this. Juice cleanse tonignt and until my trip… I can’t wait and I brought cute shorts which i can’t fit so losing 10kg + hopefully going 56kg to 41